Another Way, The Same Result..

When i decided to attend one event, i thought it could make me feel better...and i could walk away from all pains..
And i was wrong. this pains are still in here. deep inside my heart, killing me slowly..
I have no idea how to cure it. Only sleep can takes me away for awhile. I felt so lonely even when i was in crowded place, even when i was talking with friends..i felt lonely even when i laughed..

what should i do to change my life?...to remove you from my memories...